Thursday, July 31, 2014

Can you tell I'm on procrastination mode?

UGH. Thanks to my general laziness and obsession with pretty faces, I failed to come up with a short story for this week. I keep vowing to get off Tumblr and Pinterest, but damn those pretty things. Namely, this:




Ugh, you're a life ruiner. I hope you know that.

Although I wasn't COMPLETELY idle. I'm almost done rewriting Blood Promise! Added one major character, dug into one of the main ones and ripped out his guts, and thickened the plot. All that's left to do now is rewrite part of the climax and denouement, and trim and tighten the entire manuscript.

Hopefully, I can complete all that in a week. I've dragged this on for too long. Damn distractions.

Promise - PROMISE - I'll finish up the rewrites in a week. And then after that I can work on some short stories!


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And now, please allow me some time and space to unleash my inner fangirl.

SUPER JUNIOR IS BAAAAAACK! With their 7th album! After two years! Much excited! Can't handle! Will implode in minutes!







Yes, these are the dorks I'm in love with.

Now that their leader is back, 7th album let's go!


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Speaking of fangirl, I've finally gotten started on Rainbow Rowell's book.


It's been on my to-read list for the longest time, but there were just so many books in the way. Please don't disappoint, Fangirl!


Hope you're having a lovely week! :0)

(Also, promise: longer post next week!)

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

the week in tweets and books

The Week in Tweets:











The Week in Books: 


1. We Were Liars, by E. Lockhart 


OMG. This darn book. I don't know how I feel about it, whether I LOOOOOOVED it or HAAAAATED it. Two extremes. No middle ground for this book.

This is my (melodramatic) review on Goodreads:

Where do I start. Maybe about how this book completely WRECKED me. Clobbered me on the head at the revelation and then ripped me apart towards the end.

I don't know if I like this book. On a technical level, it's perfect. But I'm a sucker for happy endings - or at least, an upbeat and promising one - but this one doesn't deliver that. Instead, it has made its goblin home inside me and I can't chase it out. I can't stop thinking about the characters.

And the thing is, I can't say what the story's about without giving anything away. Just know that it's about a privileged family that tore itself inside out and there is no happy ending.

Excuse me, I need to go weep some more now. I hope you know what you've done, Lockhart. *Googles for her other books*


2. Goodbye, Rebel Blue, by Shelley Coriell


This is SO YA, it practically oozes snark and brashness and wanting and all other traits that teenagers embody.

The narrator is an edgy, smart, feisty girl called Rebecca (though she calls herself Rebel) who goes to live with her straight-laced aunt, uncle and practically-perfect-but-for-her-putrid-personality cousin after her free-spirited mother dies. Rebel is acquainted with goody-two-shoes Kennedy during detention, where they are forced to write a bucket list. The next day, Kennedy dies in an accident, and Rebel takes it upon herself to fulfill Kennedy's bucket list.

It's one of those uproariously funny, upbeat, but also poignant. With Rebel's snarky, engaging voice, you sort of breeze through the book and have to remind yourself to pace yourself so you don't reach the end so soon. The last time I wanted to hear a character talk so much was when I was reading Catcher in the Rye.


3. Sinner, by Maggie Stiefvater


I still love Sam Roth from Shiver, of course. Who could not love the sweet, soulful, sensitive, song-writing, shape-shifting* boy-wolf who folds paper cranes for his girlfriend, writes songs for her, and is funny and loves Rilke? I mean, COME ON.

But Cole St. Clair is something else entirely. Sam may be my ideal type of guy, but Cole threatens to  with his restlessness, disregard for the rules, . He's the guy who can charm the panties off you and knows how to work that to his advantage. Which would make him seriously douche-y and assholic if he weren't actually a pretty sentimental monogamist at heart.

And since I'd been dying to return to Maggie's world of Mercy Falls, I fell in love with this book since page one.


What are YOU reading this week? :0)


* I've obviously been afflicted with alliterationisis today.


Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Book review: Dreams of Gods and Monsters




So I've finally finished reading Dreams of Gods and Monsters, dammit.


I'd been trying to stave off the ending for as long as I could, but I guess no story lasts forever.


DOGAM, of course, was amazing. It was a beautiful conclusion to an epic trilogy. I remember how the first book, Daughter of Smoke and Bone, got me hooked, with its gritty premise (bones! teeth! exotic places like Morocco!), vivid characters and scenes (Brimstone the ram-headed resurrectionist! Razgut the foul, bloated fallen angel! the masquerade ball where Akiva magicked a living shawl of moths for Karou! *swoon swoon dies*)

What a ride it's been.



What I loved about DOGAM:


1. THE STELIANS. HOLY SHIT, THE STELIANS. They had me the minute the Stelian queen, Scarab, bared her teeth at the prisoners and offered them the flesh fruit grown of the prisoners' comrades. So deliciously disturbing. (Not sure what that says about my mental state.)


2. The antagonists. Jael, Razgut, Morgan Toth, and Esther Van de Vloet. They are vile. Which makes their comeuppance that much more gratifying.


3. Zuzana and Mik. Let's face it: who can NOT love them? Zuzana, the feisty little marionette girl from book 1, is just as adorable in book 3, but twice deadly and awesome now. And Mik, Violin Boy, is as sweet and romantic and crazy in love with Zuze. Together, they brought some semblance of normalcy and levity to all the doom and gloom and chaos of war.


4. As always, the prose. I've lost track of the number of times I've read and re-read and re-read and taken a screenshot of a sentence or passage I loved. These are just the tip of the iceberg of gorgeous, swoon-worthy moments in the story:

When this passage made me really want to live in the Far Isles:


When I felt Liraz's guilt gnawing at me too:


When I marvelled at the stuff Laini's brain could come up with:


When I whooped with joy at Violin Boy's romantic (and impossible) proposal:


When I imagined the film version of the book (all that makeup!):


When my heart almost stopped at this moment (thanks, Laini):



WHAT is in Laini Taylor's food? No seriously, what. I need to know, so I can produce prose as insanely beautiful as hers.

And come up with plot ideas as original and daring as hers.

And be able to weave it all together as flawlessly as she does.

One thing, though.


What DOGAM could stand to lose: 

I would gush over the perfection that is DOGAM, but I couldn't help but think that the story could be a little bit shorter. I mean, do we need so much description of Karou and Akiva's attraction to each other? I get it, the two of you are in love and it's earth-shattering and the cosmos align every time your eyes meet and the space between you two is electric and all that. Now get on with business already. You've got a world to rebuild.

So if I were being nitpicky, I'd give this book 4 out of 5 stars.

But who am I kidding. This is the closest to perfection YA fantasy can get. So 5 out of 5 stars.

Friday, July 11, 2014

Fiction Friday - Moon Trance

I was going for a creepy fairy-tale vibe with this week's short story.

It started out with these 3 sentences: "In the year without a full moon, Sheila’s skin turned blue. It came without warning, and it didn’t even hurt. She turned blue as a bunch of hydrangeas at the stroke of midnight, and that was when the wolves came sniffing."

And then it became THIS.

I've created a monster.

It was supposed to be a brief, dark, whimsical magical realism short story. Flash fiction! But then it morphed into a dark, dramatic fantasy story more than 1,000 words long.

I don't think I'll be satisfied until I have taken this story down the road where I originally meant for it to go. Perhaps a similar opening for next week's story, only this time I won't let the story run astray like a wild horse?


But for now, here's this week's short story.


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Moon Trance



In the year without a full moon, Sheila's skin turned blue. It came without warning, and it didn't even hurt. She turned blue as a bunch of periwinkle at the stroke of midnight, and that was when the wolves came sniffing.

The day her skin turned blue, Sheila woke with a twitch in her right eye, and got out of bed with a buzzing in her veins. She could hardly think, much less watch where she was going, and it was with an unsteady sort of stumble-walk that she made her way to the kitchen where he mother was making breakfast.

It had been a year of mist – girls went everywhere with wispy tendrils braided in their hair, and boys chased each other through the clouds. People walked extra slowly, and there were a lot more reports of car accidents that year.

So Sheila credited the twitching in her eye to the mist, rather than the general feeling of wrongness. It was the last Friday of December, and it they hadn't had a full moon in a year. All they had was mist, mist, and more mist, and frankly Sheila had had quite enough of it.

At night, the moon-watchers took their usual places in the field two blocks away from her house and waited. There was a strange sort of lilting music threaded in the air, and the lilacs on the windowsill were in bloom. Sheila watched from the two-bedroom apartment she shared with her mother, wondering at the silver dust that eddied through the night.

At exactly midnight, the skeins of mist parted to let in a sliver of light. And then, a fraction more. A quarter. Half. A whole. One full moon, bloated and luminous like a faery fruit hanging in the sky. Sheila stared, her mouth open. Blinked. It felt like the first taste of rain after a drought, though she had no idea why. A full moon had no impact on her.

It did, however, affect those gathered in the field below. The crowd – not more than fifty of them – erupted in triumphant hoots and cheers and appreciative whistles, as though the full moon was both a victory and a masterpiece.

Sheila wondered if she should wake her mother. She was just about to slide off the windowsill when she noticed the tinge of blue creeping into her skin.

It started from her fingertips, then crept all the way up her hands, and before Sheila could rush to a mirror she had turned completely blue. But it was, strangely, rather pretty. Luminescent and undeniable, it lit up a corner of her room. Sheila stood admiring the curious hue as the moon-watchers continued in their rejoicing. It reached up to her hairline, like a sea washed up against a red sand beach.

The lilting music, like the twitching in her eye, had stopped. Apart from the celebration downstairs, everything had fallen still at last, as though a restless wind had soared off in search of drier lands.

Sheila drifted in a wondrous fog towards her mother's room. She couldn't have slept through the commotion downstairs, she thought.

But there she was, curled tight under the covers, her crimson hair rich and wildly in bloom around her oval, peaceful face. Sheila hadn't seen her mother like this in a long while, not since the mist breezed in and the moon remained a thin scar in the sky.

Sheila bent over and tapped her mother's shoulder. "Mom?"

Veronica cracked open an eyelid. "What, baby?"

"I'm blue." As her mother roused, Sheila straightened and stretched out her hands fully.

Veronica sprung from her bed. She stared at her daughter, replete in her periwinkle glory, before leaping into action. Grabbed a swath of blankets. Wrapped Sheila in them. Got dressed. Reached for the velvet drawstring purse in her underwear drawer. Threw a sweater at Sheila. It made Sheila dizzy watching her mother move.

"We need to go," Veronica said.

"Where are we going?" Sheila asked, when what she really wanted to know what why they were going.

Then she heard it again, the moon's song (Sheila was convinced that was where it came from). It was a gentle flute-like melody, plunging low and sweet, and reaching high and pure. It was now making itself heard, trilling and dipping in a complicated tune. Her mother didn't seem to notice, so busy was she trying to shuffle Sheila out through the fire escape.

They stepped out into the cool, thin night, away from the revellers and their cameras. They kept close to the shadows, and ducked behind cars parked haphazardly as people got out to admire the moon.

But people weren't the ones they needed to hide from. The flute music snaked its way through her body – Sheila shivered, felt its caress like the gentle trail of a fingertip.

"Move, baby," her mother murmured, her grip tight around her.

But I am moving, Sheila thought. More than moving, she was dancing. Her limbs were water and wings and colour and light, flowing to the song that only she could hear.

But when she looked down, her legs were firmly in place. Next to them was a discarded pamphlet for moon-gazing the Astronomy Society had given out. The Year of Mist and Crescent Moons, it announced.

"They will find us, Sheila," her mother said, close to tears.

"Who will find us?"

"The wolves, baby. The wolves. We need to run."

"But why?"

"Because I stole the moon," her mother whispered. "I stole it for you."

For an entire year, Sheila had held the moon inside her. All year she had felt it, swollen and heavy like a ripening fruit in her. All year the mist had tried to warn her, trailing her everywhere she went. And all year, she had ignored it, grumpy at her discomfort.

And now the moon was claiming her, whispering its secrets and stories in her ear.

Sheila stood listening, catching sight of her reflection in a store window. A blue creature wrapped in blankets stared back, a beacon for the wolves. She could hear them now, lamenting the absence of the full moon, lamenting over their missing queen.

Sheila took to her feet. She need only leave the music behind, and she would be safe. The blankets got in the way, so she shook free of them and let them fly off behind her. Her mother hissed her name, but Sheila only heard the music, the music, only the moon's peculiar music.

When at last the only thing that filled her ears was her ragged breaths, Sheila slowed to a stop. Her legs gave way, and she stayed on the ground, wheezing, waiting, listening. She was far, far away from the midnight crowd now, in an empty street strewn with more Astronomy Society pamphlets.

Sheila picked herself up, turned and regarded her reflection in a darkened store front. Her eyes glowed, silver and pale like twin moons themselves. She was getting rather used to the sight of her blue skin, particularly under the moonlight.

Maybe she was the moon. Maybe she had been waiting all this while to break free, to go home. Maybe she was the queen, stolen and hidden inside that wretched witch's offspring. The one with hair the colour of blood.

Vikaela – the Blue Sister, newly crowned Queen of the Midnight Realm, Second Daughter of the Moon but second to the throne no longer ever since she removed her sister – smiled at her reflection. She rather liked the red-haired girl with the wandering, wondering mind whom she now lived with. Her body was lithe, and her mind mouldable. Oh, the things she could do with this child!

With a flick of her hand, the Blue Sister dispelled the dogged mist that wormed its ways through the streets. A stray cat sauntered up to her, rubbed its paw against her leg. She picked it up, saw her eyes in its unblinking gaze, like moonlight on a shard of glass. It purred.

In a way, Vikaela had that runaway witch to thank for bringing her into this world. This vast, new world, drunk and potent, ready for the taking. Ready for a new queen.



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Tuesday, July 01, 2014

and the to-read list keeps growing

Another book update. So soon? Yes.



BOOKS TO READ:


1. Red Queen, by Victoria Aveyard
Expected publication: 26 March 2015


In a world where people are divided by the colour of their blood, silver or red, a girl finds herself endowed with magical powers. There's rebellion, forced betrothal, and the struggle of the underdog (the protagonist belongs to the Reds, the inferior class). Kinda like Gattaca, come to think of it. Only with magic. And princes and princesses.

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Plus, that cover is GORGEOUS.


2. The Girl at Midnight, by Melissa Grey
Expected publication: 28 April 2015


This is purportedly a mix of Cassandra Clare's City of Bones and Leigh Bardugo's Shadow and Bone. An ancient race of people with feathers for hair and magic running through their veins are kept hidden from humans thanks to age-old enchantments. When her home is threatened by a centuries-old war, a runaway pickpocket decides to find the Firebird, something that can end it for good.

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3. Monstrous, by MarcyKate Connolly
Expected publication: 10 February 2015 


As Bookworm007 said:

Sounds insanely interesting!!!

A protagonist

...with the wings of a raven, the tail of serpent, and the razor-sharp vision of a cat?

...who rescues captive girls from an evil wizard and avoids human interaction?

...in love with a page boy but has yet to reveal her appearance to him?

...forced to question who the real monster is: the wizard, her father, or.....herself?

Lordy, sign me up for this adventurous ride!!!

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I'm inclined to agree.

(Seriously, how do these people come up with ideas like these??)


4. The Wrong Side of Right, by Jenn Marie Thorne


It says on Goodreads that "fans of Sarah Dessen and Huntley Fitzpatrick will enjoy this smart debut young adult novel, equal parts My Life Next Door and The Princess Diaries."

Girl meets rebellious bad boy, family conflicts and duplicitous relationships amid a presidential campaign - all the ingredients of a Korean melodrama YA contemporary novel.

(Speaking of Korean melodramas, I'm currently watching Nice Guy - AKA Innocent Man. More *here!)


This could be good.




Good thing there are books ALREADY published so we don't have to wait to immerse in awesomeness:

5. Dreams Underfoot, by Charles de Lint



Jilly paints wonders in the rough city streets, while Geordie plays the fiddle while dreaming of a ghost. The Angel of Grasso Street gather the fey and the wild and the poor and the lost; Gemmins live in abandoned cars and skells traverse the tunnels below; while mermaids swim in the grey harbor waters and fill the cold night with their song.

This book is "a must-read not only for fans of urban fantasy but for all who seek magic in everyday life".

THAT WOULD BE ME, THANKS.

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(Published in 1993?? How did I not know of this book until now and how can I get my hands on one?!)

6. In the Night Garden, by Catherynne M. Valente


Published in 2006? How did I ever miss this?!

I mean, shape-shifting witches and wild horsewomen, heron kings and beast princesses, snake gods, dog monks, and living stars, all these stories inked on a girl's eyelids that are clues to her hidden identity? I WANT TO GET LOST IN THIS BOOK ALREADY!!!



JULY READS:


1. Sinner (or rather, SINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), by Maggie Stiefvater


Anything from the Mercy Falls series is bound to be good. And I say that with utmost conviction. Shiver was life-changing, and Sinner is only going to rock (pun intended - you'll get it if you read the books!).

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(I did rush down to the bookstore during lunch to buy the book, but it's not here yet. I know you're thinking, Just buy it online, dinosaur! But I like the experience of heading down to the bookstore and making a purchase there, okay?)


2. The Midnight Thief, by Livia Blackburne


A con artist recruited by the Assassins Guild meets a palace knight intent on avenging his friend's death. In my shopping basket now, please.



* So, Nice Guy.

It started out intriguing enough, with the male protagonist, a promising pre-med student, taking the blame for his childhood sweetheart's accidental homicide. He goes to jail for a few years and comes out to find that the girl has moved on and married the CEO of some multinational company. (Nice.) He meets her stepdaughter, and makes use of her to get revenge on childhood not-so-sweetheart, but ends up falling for the daughter instead.

It's a lot to digest, with a power struggle and backstabbing and deception and dead parents and sick sister and amnesia and car accidents and divided loyalties and personal agendas and OMG CALM YOUR HORSES PLEASE, SCRIPTWRITER.

That said, I'm going to finish watching it since I'm already three quarters of the way through (mostly by skipping the draggy bits). Plus, the male lead is easy on the eyes. He has an adorable smile, and fits perfectly into the sweet-nerdy-guy-turned-angsty-protagonist role, even if my dad thinks he has a fat face. Boo.


If you have any book or drama series to recommend, please share! I'm always in need of new narratives. Hope your week's going great! :0)

Friday, June 27, 2014

Flash Fiction Friday - Monster Memory

"Write a short story every week. It's not possible to write 52 bad short stories in a row."
– Ray Bradbury

"A short story must have a single mood and every sentence must build towards it."
– Edgar Allan Poe

"The great thing about a short story is that it doesn't have to trawl through someone's whole life; it can come in glancingly from the side." 
– Emma Donoghue


See more lovely quotes about short stories at Aerogramme Writers' Studio!


This week's flash fiction is a result of this song - White Doves, by Cider Sky:



and this prompt:



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Monster Memory


It takes a monster to kill a monster.

But no matter how many monsters she fought, there was one she could never slay. The one that grew stronger inside her the more kills she racked up. Monsters came in various forms, but there was none quite as scary as the one that looked back at her in the mirror.

You mustn't grow a conscience, was what they said when she decided to join the Creed. It's bad for business.

But she couldn't stop the third party – unwelcome or not – from settling in her gut. It was an occupant that would turn the house inside out and leave muddy footprints all over the floor, but even this beat the emptiness that lived there before.

As she slipped through the desolate night into the target's house, she wondered if she was right in taking on this assignment.

Stop thinking like that, she chided herself. She had been a shivering, bloody mess reaching, grasping for support when they first found her. And it was the killing – the single-minded focus of ridding the world of evil, evil that she had had to encounter – that nursed her back to health; it was the killing that made her stronger than she had ever been before.

Why then was she shuffling her feet around this mark? Was it the file of sketches she found in his study, the one that called to mind the quiet melody of a piano filling a room, the low, gentle voice next to her ear, a warm, dry hand that smoothed the hair off her face? Whatever it was that raked up these fragmented sensations, it made her inch towards the room at the end of the hallway with an uncertainty that was as bewildering – disorientating – as it was atypical.

Even monsters had memories. What did it say about her that she recalled nothing of her life before she joined the Creed?

She shook her head hard, shoving the thoughts back into the store cupboard of her mind. Memories are dangerous things, they said. They get in the way of the job.

The doorknob was loose. It jiggled in her hand. She froze, not because of her less than perfect entry, but because of the sudden draught. All the windows were closed. 

She had seen things, many things, terrible things, as a result of this job. The violence she witnessed was what conditioned her hand, froze her heart, and drew her further and further away from herself. But here in this sparsely furnished room, where moonlight collected into a concentrated pool on a mounted canvas in the corner, what greeted her wasn't a sight that made her killing a gratuitous act.

There was no mark. No ugliness, no violence, nobody. Only the barren shell of a home abandoned by its occupants, and the pure blank canvas on which the moon made its art.

She stood in the middle of the room like a soldier stranded without an order.  Memories surged in to fill the void, seizing her by waves, driving her to her knees. And there she remained, splayed out. Played out.

When she saw him, a luminous spectre in the moonlight, she got to her feet and whipped out the knife from her shoe in a practised move. But the sight of him turned her to sand. Her knees barely supported her; even her voice came out as a rasp, raw and scraped dry.

"You were dead." She couldn't remember his name. She wouldn't.

Even though everything was starting to come back to her. All the times she had spent in his room, dreaming and laughing and loving, loving, loving him. Until one day, there was no one left to love anymore. Her dreams died along with him that day, and she had never dared to say goodbye or think of him.

But here he stood now, right before her as though he had never left. As though he weren't just a faint shadow of himself.

His eyes fell on the knife in her white-knuckled hand, then rose to meet hers. "What happened to you, Aderyl?' His gaze was an unbearable thing, heavier than the ravaged world.

The Creed had warned them of a test not too long ago, a test that many before her had failed because they had let their guard down.

This is not real, she told herself over and over. She squeezed her eyes shut and told herself that over and over again. This is just a test.

She had given life to the monster in her, and this was where it meant to devour her, in a house bursting full of tears and memories, a house from another life.

"That’s not my name." Her voice cracked like a whip, renting the tight air in a brazen move. Revenge was her name now. She had liked that, how she was labelled and known by her purpose only.

"That’s who you’ll always be to me," he said. "Aderyl."

It wasn't a goodbye, this unexpected encounter, but she felt it as keenly as the cold air brushing against her skin when he reached for her hand. She gripped her knife tighter, afraid to let go of her weapon, of herself.

It was only after the night claimed him that she allowed her knife to clatter to the ground. Her mind, once wired for the kill, now tripped over itself, and her limbs were clumsy, awkward things, unsuited for wielding weaponry of any kind.

The Creed was right. Memories were dangerous; they were monsters. Memories awakened every nerve and pulse, and left her vulnerable. They became her.

They were her.


The Creed should never have set this test.


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Thursday, June 19, 2014

The 7 types of writers

1. The Planner


The Planner outlines and details every chapter, every scene, every line before getting down to writing. Flash cards and Excel sheets are usually involved. It's pretty hardcore.


2. The Pantser

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Panster, as in write by the seat of your pants. I.e. the opposite of the Plotter. Plan? What plan? They make it up as they go along. And somehow, it works for them.


3. The After-Hours Writer


Also known as the one responsible for the feverish mutterings in the middle of the night.


4. The Researcher


You know that half of what you've researched won't go into the book, but man does it take the pressure off writing the actual thing!

Also, everything counts as research. Including watching videos like this documentary on McBusted:



5. The Uninspired


Self-explanatory.


6. The Inspired

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Well. Good for you. Exit that way, please.


7. The Desperate


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Desperate are those who have spent weeks and months tearing apart everything they write because nothing seems to be good enough.


8. The Emotional

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They react to everything they write ... or don't write.

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Guess which one I am now? 



But I found this quote on Laini Taylor's blog that is somewhat encouraging:
"One reason people have artist's block is that they do not respect the law of dormancy in nature. Trees don't produce fruit all year long constantly. They have a point when they go dormant.
And when you are in a dormant period creatively, if you can arrange your life to do the technical tasks that don't take creativity, you are essentially preparing for the spring when it will all blossom again."
~ Marshall Vandruff


Leave it to Laini to offer a dose of optimism. I swear, that woman inhales sunshine for breakfast. (Although with that fabulous pink hair, can she be anything but happy?)

Hope you're having a more creative day than me!